I haven’t been here for a while, as it’s too painful, today is Christmas Eve 2019, I’m about to leave you in the last decade, although time is irrelevant, right now, I’m sat alone but with the dogs and Lola, watching ‘A Christmas Carol’ , like we always did. How I miss you, in fact, more as time goes on, I’ll be back tomorrow to light a candle for you, love forever, mama x